`Sunday, May 01, 2005;__
single for 5 months.
I've been single for 5 months! =]
yes and i'm gonna continue my single
life! i dun wish to have a stead rite now.
oh well for simple reason cos i dun think
i need him now! not the time yet. maybe 7
more months to go and i hope i can tahan
till then lah. i can! =]
recently i find tt i'm changing! yes i changed
alot as in negative not positive. i'm becomin
very unfriendly and i've got "do i give a damn"
tt kinda look. i'm changin to somebody tt
i, myself dun wish to be. i'm not ME anymore.
not the 1 tt i used to be. Due to the problems
or the stress i'm facin rite now or wad, i dunnoe.
all i noe is I"M CHANGIN to someone i'm not
supposed to be. my temper gettin from bad to
worst. i cant control them at all. my attidudes
towards some people and things arnd me totally
changed. i'm not happy with them. they probably
aint happy with me too.but well i dun care!
i'm changed to someone who dun really care about
friendship anymore, as in normal friends.
i find tt i dun need so many of them. i noe i shudnt
have these feelins but somehow i'm havin it rite now.
i've become someone tt myself dun even know.
can u imagine how bad it is tt u , ur ownself dun
even know urself.? yea i dun noe myself. i dun
understand wad i'm doin and why the hell m i keep
changin . from bad to worst! i'm fakin all the smiles
and i'm pretendin to be strong if u notice.
i'm weak inside, yeas very weak! and i need to be
strong outside. i must. i'm not gonna be look down
i must not! friends please try to understand me,
put yourself in position! understand my problems
and u will understand y m i changin! not cause i hate
anyone of them but as i said due to the rpoblems i'm
facin now. due to the stress and stuff which cause me
to change. put urself in my position pls. forgive me for bein
what i m now or who i am now. if u cant den leave me.
.:: fall to pieces::.
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:59 PM;__
